Droll – ‘Bitter Flower’ Album Review

Droll - 'Bitter Flower' cover art by Alvin Fai droll /drōl/ adjectivecurious or unusual in a way that provokes dry amusement."his unique brand of droll self-mockery" I'm the kind of person who feels passionately enough about the music and art that I like that I think everyone else should love the things I love as …

Digressed Mind – Essential Worker Lab Test – New Track!

Some months ago I created what has, until today, been the last piece of anti-music for my experimental noise project, Digressed Mind. Late last year, my trusty laptop got sick and we haven't been able to record anything since. Today, we said enough. . This track was created on my smart phone using the BandLab …

Kryge – ‘n Dura’ Album Review

KRYGE - Ryan Petersavage and Kage Krol My introduction to Tucson experimental post-metal duo Kryge (pronounced "CRYge") came midway through 2018, a year which I began by finally overcoming the fallout from my major psychotic break three years prior, enough to start flirting again with one of my passions, live music. Denver blackened sludge behemoths …

An Uncanny Despair…

"Never moving toward, life of anymore... I am empty..." https://youtu.be/mEKaK2N24dU "...convinced of nothing else..." I am not well. I feel paranoid and delusional. I feel unreal, outside of whatever this is that we call reality. Disconnected. I feel like I am an artificially constructed thing being controlled from outside itself. I feel like everyone, everything, …

In The Ear Hole With An Ice Pick

I find myself in a horrible space today. I feel disconnected and unreal and separated from Being. My thoughts are rampant and volatile and nonsensical, full of formless anger and hatred and self-loathing and exhaustion. My state of mind alters and falters constantly and irrationally and without reason, forever into oblivion. I cannot make sense …

A Mild Psychotic Trip

We were in the car, cruising dreamily along Lakeshore Drive, eyes like flying saucers peering out into the blanket of cool, black void consuming the vast expanse of Lake Michegan, when the waves began to wash up my spine, shockingly cool, with a strangely serene froth lapping at the bank of my lizard brain. Time …

A Moral Quandary?

I began a discussion with some online friends and acquaintances by asking for opinions related to art created by figures who have, for one reason or another, fallen on the wrong side of history, i.e. Richard Wagner, Louis-Ferdinand Céline, H.P. Lovecraft, T.S. Eliot, et cetera, and whether their work in light of what we know …

Ice Picks and Membranes

I am having a really difficult time resolving my internal chaos and the bullshit that all entails with being a person in a relationship who can't always control how I lash out in moments of impulsive volatility and it's really fucking wearing on me. "Most people don't realize that two large pieces of coral, painted …

Embrace The Noose

. I came to a stark and sobering realization tonight. I am such a polluted and poisonous toxic black hole of a person and so completely consumed by self-loathing and unfathomable emptiness and insecurity that I cannot help but find the cracks and minuscule flaws in everyone and everything around me and exploit them, violently …

To Be Someone

The place we come To mend ourselves After abject cranial explosions Is littered with the remains Of those who have Come apart before us Either not reassembled, or perhaps Put back together with a Few extra pieces remaining These parts are discarded, left behind And we try to assemble them Make some sense of what …