“Sometimes I’m stuck together…”

“…sometimes I’m so unglued…” Eyehategod, lyrics by Mike IX Williams

I came out of a level 1 psychiatric hospital two days ago after a two week stay for suicidal and homicidal ideation during a psychotic episode.

At the time I felt more than ready to come back out to “reality,” but that euphoria soon passed and now I’m wondering if I came out too soon. Then, on the other hand, I feel like maybe they had gotten me as far as they could (not very far) with the resources they had available (which didn’t amount to much.) But the staff were all wonderful to be around! Except that one bitch. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. 😜

In any case, rather than just throw me out on the streets, the discharge liaison got me all set up with resources through local social programs, including appointments with a psychiatrist and a primary care doctor, one of whom can refer me to talk therapy and groups to help me further along the road to where I want to be.

I found out during my stay in the psych ward that a lot of the symptoms I have been attributing to Bipolar Disorder are actually symptoms of Borderline Personality disorder. So I’m one of the lucky few that gets to play around with mixture of the two!

In any case, as much as I loathe being on medication, Doc talked me into getting back on Lithium at a higher dose, and seeing if that takes care of the more bothersome symptoms while not dampening my passion and creativity. So, no antipsychotics antipsychotics. Hank and the Collective get to stay, for now… 😁

By the way, I am still in the process of revamping this site, and detailed entries covering many of these topics are forthwith.

Now go out there and kick some ass! I can’t go, I have to wrap my head in foil and booby trap the perimeter…

Here’s a short video showing what my first day back and out in public was like. It is possibly the dumbest thing I have ever done. Enjoy! And don’t forget to Subscribe to my channel for more rampant idiocy!

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