Dead Friends And Meanderings: Shows And Shenanigans

So, I'm kinda stupid for an allegedly smart guy, and I've murdered probably like hundreds of millions of my own brain cells over the years, and so I got the dates wrong with my brother from another mother Branden's deathiversary. He chose to exit stage left in June 2005, and I've spent I don't know …

Dead Friends And Meanderings: Another Branden Story

Another Branden story...I mentioned before that I met my dead friend Branden when he started working at the Red Lobster I worked for at the time. He wasn't dead yet, that was later.Anyways, I was a prep cook at the time, and the prep station at this restaurant was back in the corner of the …

Dead Friends And Meanderings

Somewhere in the stream of consciousness meanderings of my mind while I was working my way through a rush at work tonight, I recalled a different night in a different restaurant during a different rush some twenty plus years ago. This was while I was working at what at that time was the biggest Red …

Rotten Fruit

Last week, the night we got back to Miami before flying home, I crashed suddenly into a wall of exhaustion and sensory and mental overload, and decided to stay back at our hotel early while Beezy went out and did his own thing for a while. I set the TV to an episode of Family …

I dreamed I died

I died in my kitchen once, sometime in perhaps 2001, standing with a head full of acid watching water boil for ramen. I may have stayed dead, all this life once lived since then just a dream. Not long after I picked up this book in a crowded little bookstore in the Student Ghetto near …

Poem – Jack Kerouac

Strange Awkward Knob

As a strange, awkward knob and staunchly antisocial introvert, I always find it extra off-putting when other random weird and awkward introverts recognize me as one of their own in public and thereby view me as "safe" to practice "talking" to. Like, nah, my dude, I know we're in public and it's expected of us …

Skin Pillow’s Monday Funday Psychedelic Brain Melt And Ice Cream Social

A few weeks ago when I watched the documentary film about Wild Man Fischer, Derailroaded, it unexpectedly triggered my brain into a psychotic episode that had me fucked up for the better part of a week. I've had Larry's debut album, An Evening With Wild Man Fischer, sitting in my bin of new to me …

The Pungent Stench Of Your Undoing

For several years in my teens into my early 20s there was some component of the scents that go into Dove soaps and other products that, when I would catch that scent, I would flash back to this church camp I attended one summer when I was like twelve or something. Not any specific memory …

Deconstructed Railyard: Tale Of A Personal Brain Bomb

This may take a while.Tuesday night I started watching a film called Derailroaded, a documentary about groundbreaking outsider musician Larry Wild Man Fischer, an artist whose genius was significantly influenced by the fact that he had bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. I got distracted though, as happens frequently, and so I didn't finish watching it until …